Monday, January 15, 2007
my feelings ........
By now u should noe how i feel to u ....by now i think tat ....mayb or so u will find out that i hav many weakness and bad habits ....like burrping.....like tolking loudly .....make u angry, sad , disappointed, make u pek chey ....but at all times i will try to make u happy, laugh, hoping to see the smile in ur face .....
i noe ytd there might b sum commotion and hassle goin on bet us .....mayb u and i are not in the right mind back den .....mayb i was too angry and heated up over the matter....i m sorrie for tat....not being able to think tat tat far....but i oso hope tat u will think oso how i feel ...not being able to do tat infront of ur frenz and not being able to be truthful ....i m sad and disappointed honestly .....i felt terrible ...so i went to drink with rishi and my bro .......juz a few sip.....to make mi got the courage to tell u the truth....but juz when u noe it ....u still doubt it ?
honestly speaking i was rather sad back den ....i was more to sad den angry ...my intention in the first place is not to let u noe ....coz if i let u noe ...i donno wad u might b thinking and wad u might do ? actually i realli hoping that u can think of how i felt and how u can change it .....but when u tell mi the truth ....i realised its alritz ....after all we are still young .. immature ... naive .... and mayb we might still b thinking things too straight and not deep enuf ya ...so i cant realli blame u for it .....for once i might think that i m impulsive....care for u too much ....did not realli think how u feel ...i sorrie for tat ...
ytd .....my hp was all along beside mi ......i was hoping to sms u to say sorrie to u ...coz i was really cold towards u back den ....typing those cold sms to u .....coz mayb the anger within mi juz keep spinning in my mind ....which makes mi didnt type a apology msg to u ....sorrie tat i lose my cool ytd .....but u should noe i care for u ....diun wanna hear ur apology ...dun wanna noe now u are thinking ....juz wanna say a word sorry to u ......
for once i thought i can b strong and magnanimous as i used to be ....but this time i fail it ...i cant do tat .....i juz thought tat i can keep the cool ....still the same .....dun let u noe wad i am thinking so that u might not think that i m sad angry or disappointed...but guess in the end u saw it ......i wasnt realli angry but kinda sad tat all .......
fighting and squabbling has become part of our lives ....althought we tolk back with each other often ....and scold each other .....i dun mind ....coz the more we do tat ....the more we can still maintain the tolk bet us ....i dun mind tat u tolk to ur frenz and go out wif them ...but at least u can still think that ....how i feel .....i m sorrie....mayb i am selfish or wad .....but i do realli hope tat i m a guy ....i need ur attention at times ......i dun realli need it all the times as mayb u cant mutli task often....haaZ .....but u can at least show it to mi ritz ?
i hav much thinking over the afternoon and the night .......i noe this time mayb i was in the wrong ....too selfish i think .....nvm....at least after this time i noe wad i should do to become a better person in handling stuff like tat ....i need to think more .....dun need feel bad sad or wad ...i juz want u to noe tat ...if u are sad i will be there....if u are lost i will oso b there ....if u cant see the light in front of u ..i will make sure i will open a path of light for u ....no matter where i am ..no matter wad i am doin ....i will make u see the light
~i luv u ~
o^.^o v
12:56 AM
